Oh, this writing thing is really helping.

I worked on sorting out my emotions over the past few days, journalling it out and writing what felt right,,, and I think I'm doing better already!

I'm not feeling better by leaps and bounds, but talking with Beau and working out problem areas has helped.... a lot. I can't say I feel BETTER than before, but everything feels... easier. Like a weight was lifted or something silly like that.

It might be because I'm not just trying to just push everything away, and instead actually,,,, focusing?? On how i feel? I feel less like I have a "purpose" or a reason,,, and I think that's better. Not everything's sorted out, and yeah... I have a long way to go BEFORE I'm all like... pinkie perfect,,, but I do think this has been helping me more.

On the non-insane-pinkie side, A bunch of my new clothes came in! I bought a lot of clothes and girly things for my birthday, because I feel SOO much better when I'm all feminine and pink... I wonder why they call me pinkie,,,,,

I'm more motivated, and maybe I can give this site a big ol overhaul over the upcoming weeks, and also work on my story a bunch!! I'm feeling less overly-attached to people, and I'm feeling more confident in uh... leaving my close friends [and beau,..... beau the biggest victim of my yapping] alone without having to voice EVERY thought I have... though it is very nice to share all of my ideas... I really just like yapping X3.